I'm 30 years old, am married to my best friend, and am blessed with wonderful family and friends. I love God and am pleased that he knows me and loves me just the same. I love kids, have always worked with kids, and always thought I would have lots of kids of my own. I never thought it would be easy, but I never thought it would be this hard.
2005 - get married 2006 - continue honeymoon period - what bliss! Feb 2007 - throw out BCP, but not yet TTC July '07 - start TTC, oh what fun and blissful ignorance! Nov '07 - I start worrying, DH still enjoying himself around July '08 - start testing with GP, DH's SA shows abnormality, progesterone normal, ovulating normal, referral to FS Sept '08 - meet FS, not a good fit, HSG normal, repeat SA normal Dec '08 - meet with new FS, love her! Suspect endometriosis, arrange lap for following year. Feb '09 - lap removes mild endometriosis and small cysts. TTC naturally for six months. April '09 - BFP! 1st ever, joy shortlived, chemical pregnancy August '09 - commence IUI #1, 3 follies, lots of wrigglers, chemical pregnancy? Sept '09 - IUI #2, BFN Oct '09 - IUI #3, BFN, chemical pregnancy? Oct '09 - FS appt, suspected recurrent miscarriages after 3 +ve HPT in past 6 months. Scheduled BT and scans. Nov '09 - start IVF, 6 eggs retrieved, 3 eggs frozen, 1 egg immature, 2 fertilised, 1 embryo transferred. BFN March '10 - FE(egg)T, 1/3 eggs survived thaw, 1 egg fertilized, chemical pregnancy May '10 - long down reg IVF. 11 eggs, 2 fert (1 survives), 9 frozen. 1st HCG=42, 2nd = 72, 3rd=160. 8wks5days hb=158. 10wks no hb at OB appt. D&C 19th July. Sept '10- FE(egg)T, 0/9 eggs survive thaw Nov '10- diagnosed with thyroiditis, compound heterozygous for MTHFR, elevated homocysteine 2011- ?IVF#3
Useful Books I've Read
"Swimming Upstream" infertility from the male perspective
"Hannah's Hope" - a Christian perspective on infertility and loss
I am so sorry. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your DH.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear that. Sending hugs your way.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry. My heart is breaking for you.
ReplyDeleteOh sweetheart I am so so sorry. This whole rollercoaster is just so cruel.
ReplyDeleteIf you wanna chat pls let me know (aussie girl here). Spent 7 yrs of ttcing so know the whole crappy thing well.
Lots of hugs to you both xoxo.
Oh no. :( My heart dropped while reading this. I am so, so sorry and will cry out to Lord on your behalf.
ReplyDeleteOh I am so so sorry. Praying for you right this second.
ReplyDeletePsalm 30:5
Weeping may remain for a night, but rejoicing comes in the morning.
Psalm 34:18
The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.